Counting my blessings.

Today for I don't know what reason I am feeling so overwhelmed and blessed. Maybe it's because Scarlett is taking such a long nap I have been able to not only sleep myself but clean and bake and she is still sleeping so with nothing to do but relax it got me thinking. I am so blessed to have such a beautiful healthy daughter, that my body was able to bring her into this world and I am the lucky lady that gets to be her mom and what a divine role that is! My biggest accomplisent will forever be my family. I'm blessed with a husband who works incredibly hard to provide so that I can mostly stay home with Scarlett. He also is incredibly handsome. I've got a beautiful home and a wonderful job. I could really go on all day about every little thing I am grateful for so summing it up would be I'm grateful for everything! The clothes on my back to the sun shining this beautiful fall day. I'm also thankful for the knowledge and the truth that things are hard, money is tight, I'm sleep deprived etc. but it could always be worse. So much worse, to think I ever have it bad at all is pathetic because I have it really really freaking good, and I need to focus on that more. So here's to being positive and thankful and a better person.

Cooking: well not till this weekend but homemade chili, corn bread and pumpkin chocolate cookies.

Making: a grocery list, and checking it twice.

Drinking: passion fruit tea, my sisters got me hooked!

Reading: blogs and recipes

Wanting: new friggin shoes

Looking: at my sweet lil babe sleeping (yay for naptime!)  

Playing: Jason derulo trumpets...on repeat. Not gonna lie I love this song.

Wasting: time. I should be cleaning or doing laundry but I think I will sit here and watch revenge and blog instead.

Wishing: it was November and we were in Vegas!

Enjoying: being home from camping/hunting!

Waiting: for scar to wake up so we can go to the store, can I just say how much fun it is to have her come with me everywhere I seriously love it even though it can be a hassle.

Liking: the rainy, cloudy, cool days of fall.

Wondering: what to make for diner..

Loving: my new job!! Seriously cirque lodge was a god send.

Hoping: this stupid no good never ending cold will go away forever!!!

Marveling: that Scarlett is  8 months old today!

Smelling: Cinnabon and pecan candel...I'm obsessed with fall candels and my house smelling good 24/7 I hate it when my house smells like food I cant stand it! Weird right?

Wearing: grey t shirt dress, plaid shirt tied around my waist and black wedge booties

Planning: I really seriously want a mothers play date. I want to make snacks and crafts and what not and invite other mom over to my place so we can all be friends! Who's with me? (There will be really really good snacks....I promise)

Noticing: that my nails really need to be painted.

Knowing: that this weekend will be a good one!

Thinking: about zacs and Scarlett's birthday parties. I've already started planning them...

Feeling: so so tired! Baby waking up every two hours 3 nights in a row and counting seriously?! Like wtf scar. Not cool.

Opening: baby proofing kits...yes the time has come.

Giggling: at Scarlett talking to herself when she wakes up.

The things I think

•waiting until it is absolutely necessary to wash my hair, like when not even a pony tail or a hat will do!

•going hunting this weekend! My dad has an elk tag and zac and him are like little girls just squealing with delight. Also my dad keeps giving zac all this crap for hunting like we've got room for that crap! My living room is covered in camo gear.

•Scarlett doesn't sleep through the night all the time and I'm so beyond sick of it.

•I cannot sleep at all until zac is in bed with me! So to pass the time until he is home I decided to write this blog.

•my sweet darling grandparents watched Scarlett for me today on such short notice while I was called into work for a whole two hours and when I went to pick her up my g-ma had made pumpkin chocolate cake! Her house smelled amazeballs! She gave me a HUGE slice and I ate some cake with my fingers on the drive home like the savage I am when it comes to sweets. And once I got home I ate mostly basically all of it except a few bites...just so zac could enjoy a sliver of the goodness cause I'm so considerate.

•looking at the barley frosted mountain tips makes my heart flutter for snowboarding season! This will be my 9th season snowboarding! Last year I was preggo when the snow was good and I even contimplated going then! I didn't but I would have if my dad and husband would have let me...then once Scarlett was here I did go! Like 3 weeks after I had her. The doctor said no exercising etc. for 6 weeks but that's BS cause I felt great so I went! Nothing will keep me from my one hobby/passion!

•is it so weird I'm already thinking about baby 2? Not that I want one now or for a few more YEARS! Just that I daily think about a sibling for Scarlett. I'm not even sold on a second child all the time but if we were to I think she needs a sister. Cause what's better/worse than a sister?!? I love mine now and they're my besties so I want scar to have the same.

Real talk

•so for months now everyone has been pregnant and blogging all about it and birth stories (guilty pleasure I LOVE reading birth stories) now everyone has had their babies and blogged their birth stories and now everyone is busy with their newborns and I miss their blogs! So point me in the direction of your favorite blogs!

•speaking of blogs I just starting reading a blog called leather and lace and holy hell it's my fav. Ibe been reading it nonstop like a novel! Her writing and real-ness make me think I should stop filtering my own writing cause in my head I sound just like her blog! So some changes in my writing are sure to come. You have been warned.

•I'm loving this fall weather! I can't wait for all things pumpkin and cozy baggy clothes just like the rest of the world but fall truly makes me so happy.

•so zacs parents are getting married this year! The day after thanksgiving to be exact. They have been together 22 years but never married crazy right?! So their wedding is at the aria in Vegas!!!! They go to Vegas for thanksgiving every year so why not double whammy it and throw in a wedding too?! I'm so excited! It's going to be like something straight out of gossip girl I swear. Champagne and high end hotels plus I bought a gorgeous gown today for the occasion! Easily the nicest dress I've ever worn next to my wedding dress if course.

•Scarlett is quite the character....she is nuts. She has been anti nap time, enjoys screaming at the too of her lungs like...all damn day! Especially in inappropriate places like the mall, while I'm on an important phone call, etc. she just screams all day...for fun! Headaches are inevitable.

•she also is such a girl already like she doesn't ever know what she wants. She wants to play with her toys while she is standing but she has to be standing in my lap and she is so hungry but won't eat and don't you dare stand up without holding her cause she will loose it! And she never wants toys she wants like movies and outlets and remotes and the tv so she screams cause she can't have those things! I'm dreading her as a toddler...

•all I want is to buy shoes. I'm seriously craving to go shoe shopping! I don't think that's normal or healthy. (#shopaholic)

•I need mommy friends! Let's sit at each other's houses and be exhausted with our babies together! For reals.

•all I ever want to eat is a milkyway dark chocolate candy bar...WHY?!? Why can't I crave fruits or better yet veggies!?

•speaking of healthy I am 5 weeks into kaya itsines bikini body guide and I love it and I hate it and that's another post entirely! But since I'm doing it and will finish it before the said wedding in November I bought my fancy gown in a size 2 which I fit into just like...it would look better if I lost a few more pounds ya know? So there is my motivation to kick some ass and kick it into gear with these workouts!!

•I have had a cold for 2 going on 3 weeks now! It's the longest most annoying cold I have ever had! And of course I have given it to Scarlett! Poor thing is all stuffed up too...