The days kept dragging on with no signs of labor. Monday I went to the doctor again I was 2cm dilated and 50% effaced and 100% disappointed. My doctor told me to come back on Thursday the 6th if I didnt have the baby already. That night Zac and I went for a long drive in his truck down all the bumpiest roads we could find {yup, I was that desperate} but still nothing. I thought for sure I would have to be induced, and I was fine with that I just wanted my doctor to induce me already! but he was so set on NOT inducing me. Again the days dragged on, I was 10 days over due. Thursday night around midnight I woke up in a small amount of pain. I knew it was contractions, I tried timing them but they were inconsistent and honestly didn't hurt very much but they kept me up. Around 3a.m I decided to wake Zac up and tell him he asked if we needed to go to the hospital I said no I dont think so and he replied with deep breaths...meaning he was already asleep again. That morning we went to the doctors...AGAIN! I didn't want to tell him I was having contractions because I thought he wouldn't induce me but Zac ended up telling him. The doctor told us that they would start the induction process TODAY! that he would set it up with the hospital to start me on a pill called sidotech {eh, however you spell that} we would go to the hospital, they would insert the pill and monitor me for about an hour, then we would go home and come back 6 hours later for the same thing and if that didnt get my labor going they would give me pitocin. I was really scared and excited too, Zac was ecstatic! We had to wait for the hospital to call us to tell us what time to come down, so Zac went back to work and I went home to sleep. The hospital called a few hours later telling us to come down at 4. My contractions were stronger now, I had to sit still and breath through them, they were coming about every 2-3 minutes. Zac got home, and I suggested we bring our hospital bags...just in case ya know? so we packed up and went to the hospital. We had to wait around for a few minutes then finish up some paper work, I made Zac do all the talking cause I was being a brat because I was pain so I figured it was best if I kept my mouth shut. Finally we were in a birthing suite I got settled in planning on only being there an hour or so. I asked the nurse how long she thought this would take, she looked at us confused and said "you guys are here for the night, your having your baby!"Zac and I looked at each other in shock! I told him it was a good thing we brought our hospital bags! I was now 3cm dilated and 80% effaced and with the way my labor was progressing I didnt need to be induced at all! I asked the nurse if there was anything they could give me for pain and she got right on it. I was feeling great. We texted our families and told them, my sister Katie was the first to show up with all sorts of goodies, magazines and comfy socks for me, snacks and energy drinks for Zac and clothes for the baby. Then everyone else slowly started filing in. I ordered every drink they offered because I knew once I had the epidural I wouldn't be able to eat. We all just hung out for a few hours till the nurse came back in, she told us that she had called the doctor to come break my water I looked at Zac in panic and fear once again, but he just squeezed my hand and smiled, and I thought to myself "oh please, you dont have to go through any of this". I asked the nurse if I could get my epidural before they broke my water because I was scared it would hurt even though she told me countless times it wouldnt, but I insisted. She said it depends who gets here first the doctor or the anesthesiologist. They showed up at the same time and again I insisted on the epidural. My family left the room, I was in tears of fear because all I had heard about an epidural was how bad it hurts and how HUGE the needle is etc. The anesthesiologist was really nice, he had my lay on my side, and he made Zac sit on the couch...so I made the nurse hold my hand. He then numbed my back and told me whenever I would feel a pinch or a poke, the first pinch made me jump but it didnt hurt really, it just felt like any other shot...except in your back, so it was kind of weird. Then he sprayed some adhesive spray on my back which made me jump again because it was so cold! That almost hurt worse than the shot! it honestly was not bad AT ALL so any of you ladies out there who are scared of an epidural, dont be! Anyway then my doctor came in and broke my water which just felt like I wet the bed, my family came in and we waited around for a bit longer. I was mostly in and out of sleep, and very happy when I would look at my monitor seeing how many contractions I was having and not feeling them at all! I also ate TONS of ice chips, they even flavored them, tigers blood, orange, cherry, lime...it was awesome! While we waited Zac brushed my hair and cuddled on the bed with me. Then I started to feel my contractions again, Zac kept hitting the button to get me more medicine but that just made the machine lock up so the anesthesiologist had to come back in to give me more. It seemed like FOREVER till the nurse came back in and checked me again, I was 100% effaced and fully dilated and ready to push. Again I teared up in fear and looked at Zac, he was so sweet and encouraging and I knew there was really no way out of this, so I hugged my family and they went to the waiting room. It was just my doctor, a nurse, and a baby nurse in the room with us. Pushing was easy and exhausting and exciting all at the same time, after 24 minutes of pushing and 14 hours of labor baby Scarlett was here! I remember looking at her in the doctors arms and every second she didn't cry seemed like minutes! finally she started crying and everything seemed like it was in slow motion, that sounds so cheesy but honestly thats how it was. Zac cut her umbilical cord, they wiped her off and put her on my chest and it was like everything in the world was right, everything made sense. It was the most peaceful, beautiful feeling in the whole entire world. I didn't cry at all I was just so extremely happy and in shock that this was all real. They had to take her to the NICU because she was having some trouble breathing and I had a fever towards the end of my labor. I didnt even remember my doctor was there until he told us he was concerned with the amount of blood I had lost and how many blood clots there were. My family was able to come in and see me but Scarlett was still in the NICU and it was 3 in the morning, so they went home. My sister in law and niece stayed though. We were in the process of moving to the recovery room when we stopped by the NICU to see her but she was all ready to come be with us! We got to the room and all held her till they took her back because she needed antibiotics. Finally it was time to get some sleep. Every time I woke up I paged the nurse to bring her in so that I could hold her. It was the most surreal feeling, I just couldn't believe she was ours! Every time Zac held her I would just melt. I have never been so in love with him, with our baby. Its the strongest most intense love in the world and there will never be words to fully describe it. I love Zac more than ever, and I feel a love I have never felt for Scarlett. The rest of our stay consisted of lots of visitors, sleeping, wingers sticky fingers, and lots of family cuddling. Late Sunday night we were able to go home, my brother stayed with us to help us get home. We stopped for food and my mom met us at our apartment with balloons. We quickly unloaded all of our stuff, ate, put Scarlett in her crib and climbed into our own bed...oooohhhh we were so happy to be in our own bed! especially Zac, poor guy had to sleep in a chair basically, I felt so bad. Whenever Scarlett woke we both jumped out of bed to feed and change her. Motherhood is amazing, my daughter is amazing and my husband is the most amazing person in the whole world. I am filled with love for these two like I never thought possible. I am so head over heels for Zac, always have been always will be, but the love I have for him is SO much stronger now I count down the minutes till he is off work and my chest feels like it will burst from the butterflies I get when I hear his key in the door. I tear up whenever he is cuddling Scarlett. He has been my strength through everything since we met and every time I was scared in the hospital he was there to keep me together and reassure me and even writing this is making me cry. So I will stop and share the pictures my incredibly talented sister Katie took, she did such a great job capturing every moment.
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