busy & change

busy.
i work part time at the sweet tooth fairy, i work about 20 hours a week more or less. and my shifts are on average 4 hours long. even though i dont work a whole lot being home with a baby keeps me VERY busy. scarlett wants to be played with constantly, if you set her down she starts crying! and there is a never ending list of things to do around the house! but somehow i find excuses to never cook anymore (#badwife) between being a mom, housekeeper, running errands, finding time to shower and work i feel like my days are slammed. even when i have a quiet minute i am very busy...enjoying 15 minutes of nothing. being a stay at home mom is a full time job! and if/when zac and i decide to have ANOTHER baby i cant imagine trying to work, yet women do it everyday with a handful of kids. we are all supermoms if you ask me.


change.
i have felt so anxious, unsettled, restless etc. the past few months. needing...craving a change. when we learned our lease is up at the end of july we were in a panic to find a new place to live. i thought this move is what i need. but the stress of trying to find somewhere to live that worked for our budget, and location, and timing was seriously the worst. and to be honest i didnt want to move at all. we found 2 places that we would have moved into but neither of those ended up working out for us. and in the end we decided to stay where we currently live. and we both felt REALLY good about it. sure paying an arm and a leg for rent isnt ideal, and to add hospital bills kinda makes it that much more stressful but we both feel much more comfortable saying here, in our first home. this place is the only other place that feels right. we looked at dozens of apartments, condos, houses that we so much more affordable but i was so set on "it doesnt FEEL right" so that didnt end up being the change i have been craving. but i do want to go back to school so badly! maybe later this year or early next year but i plan to attend taylor andrews beauty school for their make up program. and i am squirming in my chair with excitement because i cannot wait to start! so even then no changes have been happening. and i am still restless. but at least this weekend we will be in wyoming! the greys river is honestly a place of clarity for me so hopefully this short trip will be worth it!